Love Letters



It was with a lot of excitement that I found out last week that I’ll be joining the Juliet Club in Verona as one of their writers for two weeks in early 2017. Every year, the Juliet Club receives thousands of love letters addressed to Shakespeare’s tragic heroine, and every letter is responded to, by hand, by one of the staff writers. Ever since I heard about this, I wanted to take part and just can’t wait!

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The Juliet Club

Ever since I was a teenager, I’ve always been a sucker for the love letter. In our times, when most proclamations of eternal devotion are sent as Facebook messages or perhaps an email if you’re feeling particularly amorous, I believe the handwritten love letter should be celebrated. I’ve written a few in my time, some of which were never sent, some of which were, and I’ve even received a few… There is something so special about the time and feeling that goes into composing a heart-felt letter to someone you love, or, as in the case of letters to Juliet- to a universal symbol of love.


Last year, I made a love-letter Christmas calendar to my love- one handwritten letter for each day of December, and that seemed to go down well. (If you’re reading this, I look forward to your version this year, no pressure.) In both of my first novels, I have worked in love letters from one character to another, most of all probably because I love writing them. So, needless to say, I can’t wait to make it my full time job for two whole weeks in the beautiful city of Verona in 2017!


How to Be Both

Many of us have to, or choose to; rather, combine a writing career with children and a significant other. Or other constellations that make big demands on time and headspace. Trying to plot a novel in your head while someone small and gorgeous and loud says ‘Mommy’ (over and over and over) is, ahem, slightly demanding. Sometimes it drives me outright insane. It’s not like you can switch either off- the novel or the kids. A lot of people, mostly non-writers, are of the conviction that one can just not work while the kids are around, sitting down prettily for a few hours here and there when it’s convenient. Except…It doesn’t work like that, not for me at least. Working on a novel is like living in two worlds at once, so switching it off is actually like switching the world off.


Writing a novel does seem to be a legitimate, even admired kind of insanity at times. It must be one of the hardest jobs to combine with any other kind of life, though, in its relentless demand of headspace, emotional involvement and hours of uninterrupted thinking (fat chance…)

I should have put a question mark in the title, because it’s hardly as if I have an answer to this one.


The Books that Change Your Life

We all have them, hopefully, those books we’ve read and loved and that have moved us so profoundly that they actually changed us. As a writer, one can only hope to one day write something that bears a real influence on a reader’s life, and receiving an email from a reader saying my first book ‘made her finally come to terms with herself’ was incredible. I’m often asked about book recommendations, and while I have read so many incredible novels that have undoubtedly shaped me both as a writer and as a person, I’ve picked some of my personal all-time favorite reads. What are yours?

Away by Amy Bloom


I loved this little, odd, sad book. Bloom’s talent for unexpected prose and cutting straight to the bone of the human experience never ceases to surprise me.

Gilead by Marilynne Robinson 

Cover of Gilead

Cover of Gilead

This quiet, humble book about an old preacher writing to his young son completely floored me. If very pressed, I’d be likely to say this is the best book I have read. Ever.

White Noise by Don de Lillo


For me, this novel was life changing in its way of validating the underlying confusion and anxiety of postmodern life. It’s very funny and very sad at once, just how I like it.

All That is Solid Melts Into Air by Darragh Mckeon


This is an absolutely stunning debut novel, moving and bold and terrifying and wonderful. Mckeon does not shy away from brutal descriptions of one of the biggest tragedies of our times, Chernobyl, and his prose is unwaveringly beautiful for it.

Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer


I loved this book, and how Safran Foer doesn’t give a hoot about adhering to the rules. I’ll never forget little Oskar and how beautifully and sensitively Safran Foer explored his world.

The Blue Afternoon by William Boyd


Old-school love story with an exotic and dangerous undertone. This book stayed with me for a very long time and I’ve re-read it twice.

After You’d Gone by Maggie O’Farrell 


This was the first book that broke my heart. It made me want to write a grief novel, and is just so achingly beautiful in its complete absence of clichés.





Research, Imagination and Experience


River Congo near the border to CDR

As a novelist, a significant amount of time is usually spent on research, depending, of course, on the kind of fiction you write. If, like me, you write/want to write books set in far-flung locations, occasionally with historical backdrops or flashbacks, then this part of the job will be a pretty big one. A lot of people ask me about how exactly I conduct the research for my writing projects, and I think it comes down to a combination of factual research, imagination and personal experience.

When Before I Leave You (Før Jeg Forlater Deg), absolutely everyone asked me if I’d been to the Central African Republic where the novel is set in part. I haven’t, but I certainly did my homework. I spent several months intensely researching the physical geography, the political situation and the history of the country, and closely conferred with a photographer friend, who has extensively worked in the CDR. One of my main characters, Aurélie, is an art photographer, and so this was useful in killing two birds with one stone. I listened to music from the region, watched videos and endless photographs. Then I imagined a lot, and even though I haven’t been to that exact place, I had a crystal clear vision in my mind of how it looked, felt and smelt. I also drew on personal experience from other travels, for example a jungle trek in Mexico. After the book came out, I was really pleased when reviewers and readers said that the African parts of the novel felt very authentic and well-researched. And now I do feel like I really have been there!
river congo

I definitely think there’s a lot to be said for using places in your writing that you know intimately, and that are a part of your very being- your hometown or country of origin, perhaps, but I don’t think all the locations in a novel need to be places you know and love. I feel drawn to France in my writings, and all three of the books I’ve written or am working on, have a French connection in some capacity. I’ve lived several years in France, speak the language and have French family, so perhaps it isn’t strange that I use these experiences when I create fiction.


Éauze, Gers. The hometown of my character Luc Mareau


Brooklyn, New York. Home of Flavia and Genevieve in my new book

The book I am finishing up at the moment is partly set in places I haven’t been, like Afghanistan, Pakistan and Kyrgystan, however, those parts of the book are about a fugitive man hiding in the mountains. I can create those images from a combination of geographical research from the Wakhan/Pamir regions, my own mountain experiences (many!) and a solid dash of imagination. And I believe that imagination is a very big part of what being an author is all about; trusting in, and going with, the images in your mind and bringing them to life for your readers.


Eilat, Israel, where all hell breaks loose in my book…


Peshawar, Pakistan

Beating Internet Addiction



Ironically, I’m writing this during my writing time, doing what I always do; write three sentences, take half an hour to check email, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, newspapers and blog, write three more sentences, repeat. Yes, sad. These digressions are often triggered by a quick thesaurus search or checking a fact on Google, but I’m then unable to return to the document until I’ve entirely filled my mind with thoughts about what my friends ate for breakfast, how to fix an iPhone in Verbier, how Huvafen Fushi seems like a rather strong contender for bucket list trip after next book sale… So, where does it stop? I’d love to hear from other writers who were web-junkies like me and who managed to stop. I do have pretty good days when I sit somewhere with no wifi, but on other days, I break out in a cold-sweat at the very thought of this…

However, I do secretly blame the fact that this isn’t my office for my lack of concentration:




Shhhh… A snippet from book #3


vidda Batu Ferringhi

I’m having to be rather secretive about my second novel at the moment, but will say that its working title is Broken Blood and that it’s a bone-chilling (hopefully!) thriller. I’ve also been working late nights on my third book, which is a sequel to the first, Before I Leave You (Før Jeg Forlater Deg). I love the feeling of when a novel actually begins to come together, and this one has been especially enjoyable for me as I’ve had the pleasure of ‘meeting’ all the characters from my book again. So, what’s it about? It’s about what happens after forever after…It’s set in London, Hardangervidda and Île de Penang. It’s a love story, still, but a mystery too. Like Quentin Tarantino, I imagine that the characters from my different projects somehow live in the same universe, and in this novel, (working title I’ll Never Be Afraid of Loving You), a couple of characters from Broken Blood and another future project make brief cameo appearances…

I thought I’d share a snippet!


Bruno Siguël

Villa Chengdu


Île de Penang



Chère Aurélie,

Did you receive my last two letters? It seems unlike you to not respond, but perhaps I have offended you. If so, I apologize. Life here is still mostly good. I am pleased to tell you that I have met somebody who I’m enjoying getting to know and spending some time with. Her name is Jen and she’s a surgeon from Boston; we work together. Like me, she likes film noir and dim sum, so it’s been nice to rediscover both of those in the company of someone other than myself. There’s an open air cinema just a few minutes walk down the beach, and it’s a rather wonderful place; its basicness adds to its charm, and I have caught myself wishing that you could have joined me for a movie in the fragrant evening, to the background noise of the old canvas screen rippling on the breeze merging with the distant smash of waves.

Something else that has happened: I stumbled, for the hundredth time the other day, on a floorboard which is slightly loose, and this time, I decided I’d had enough, so I pulled it entirely loose with the intention of properly fixing it later. But underneath was a large collection of letters. I won’t bore you with the details, but I will say I glanced at them briefly at first, and then with more interest; they painted quite an ominous and disturbing picture of a family which must have once owned or lived in this house. It would seem that a brother and a sister, twins, had an ongoing love affair over several decades, and that their relationship resulted in three children, two of whom were killed in infancy by the third. Can you imagine? After reading them, I felt quite unsettled but put them back where I found them and fixed the floorboard. I want to let Villa Chengdu keep her secrets, I’ve decided. It made me realize, though, that this life isn’t uncomplicated for anybody. I’m not someone who has suffered disproportionately.

On a different note, work is going very well. I get on with my colleagues, and while there is a steady stream of patients whose conditions challenge me on a daily basis, it’s nothing like in M’Nembe, when I constantly felt like I was trying to save mankind with some iodine and a couple of Band-Aids. I have thought about one thing a lot: that you put up with as much as you did. When we first went to Africa, I convinced myself that doing so was our shared dream, Aurélie, but I know that it was only mine, really, and you let me have it. Life, like dreams, I guess, can be fickle and suddenly turn sour, and had I known how much of a nightmare M’Nembe would turn out to be, I’d never have brought you there. We did have our moments, though, didn’t we, in that sad, blue bungalow? I’m laughing as I write this, thinking about playing Sam Cooke loud on the old gramophone, dancing in the kitchen with you, and all the villagers came and stood outside in the clearing, wondering what the crazy French medicine man and his wife were doing.

Or when we went to Cameroon and the car got stuck in the mud on the way to Kribi and you had to drive while the taxi guy and I pushed it free, do you remember? The look on your face, Aurélie, priceless; a cool, Parisian blonde at the bare metal wheel of a patched green VW beetle in the middle of Africa. Another memory from those days, which never fails to make me smile, is when you’d given a few items of clothing you no longer used to that woman who was married to the very tall longboat man (what were their names?) and she shredded them and made bridles for her goats.

And those football matches against the Ugwu boys- remember how serious they’d get? I have a vision of you in my head of getting up off the blanket you were sitting on at the sideline, suddenly screaming ‘Merde’ when Olalu tackled me to the ground, drenching me in mud, a sharp rock underneath it slicing into my skin. And later, at home, you sat so patiently cleaning the fleshy gash on my back of mud and grit, bathing it in hydrogen peroxide, as if you were the doctor, not me. We talked and talked through the bad times, didn’t we, but we never did find the time to talk about all the joyful moments.

I hope my letters are reaching you and that you are keeping well.


What is a good daily word count?

This is a question I’m pretty sure most writers preoccupy themselves with at times, pity there doesn’t seem to be a clear answer on what a respectable daily output should be. Personally I try to do 1000 words a day if, like now, I’m actively building a novel. On a good day, I sometimes write 4-5000 words, on a bad day, of which there are many more, less than 500.


How I wish this was me, and that my days were spent rambling around a big, French country chateau, reading and writing!!

Anmeldelse, Før Jeg Forlater Deg



Forlag: Juritzen
Sideantall: 301
Sjanger: Roman
Utgitt: September 2013
Kilde: Anmeldereksempar
Verdt å vite: Alexandria Bockfeldt har blant annet en master i Creative Writing, og har utgitt flere noveller på engelsk. Før jeg forlater deg er hennes debutroman, og hun begynte å skrive den i 2008. Den ble opprinnelig skrevet på engelsk.

Sårt om kjærligheten

Romanen Før jeg forlater deg innledes med en scene fra Hardangervidda i 2002, og så forflytter vi oss til London i 2010. Her bor flyvertinnen Helena sammen med sin mann Daniel, og deres datter Cassiopeia. Helena pendler mellom besøk hos sin senile mor på sykehjem, jobb og familie, mens hun lengter tilbake til et spesielt møte i fortiden. Parallelt med dette blir vi kjent med kunstfotografen Aurelie, som befinner seg i M’Nembe i Afrika sammen med sin mann, legen Bruno. Aurelie har også en stor lengsel i seg.

Som det går frem av handlingsbeskrivelsen, er dette en roman om relasjoner, og spesielt forholdet mellom kvinner. Bockfeldt skriver om det til tider vanskelige forholdet mellom mor og datter.
Følelsen av å skuffe, og ikke leve opp til forhåpninger – ikke være den man tror ens mor skulle ønske at man var. Usagte ord og følelser, som bygger seg opp som en mur mellom mødre og døtre, og lengselen etter at ting kunne ha vært annerledes. Før jeg forlater deg er også en roman om forholdet mellom søsken, og knivingen om en forelders kjærlighet og anerkjennelse. Helt i sentrum står imidlertid den lesbiske kjærligheten mellom to kvinner, og hvor fin, men også til tider vanskelig den kan være.

Den store kjærligheten og hvordan man velger, eller ikke velger, å forholde seg til den, går som en rød tråd gjennom romanen. Moren til Helena er svært opptatt av atombomber, og kjærligheten som skildres i denne boken kan på mange måter minne om en slik bombe, som når den overraskende utløses, skaper ringvirkninger langt inn i fremtiden. Ingen av dem som står i nærheten forblir uberørt. Lengsel og sorg er også temaer forfatteren er inne på, og hun reflekterer rundt forskjellen mellom den fysiske kjærligheten og den som sitter i hjertet.

Første delen av romanen er ganske innadvendt og stillferdig. Bockfeldt bygger stille og rolig opp historien, inntil den tar av i den siste delen av boken. Hun har talent for å skildre, og skape gode øyeblikk i teksten. Med fotografens presisjon fanger hun hendelsene, fryser og forstørrer dem, og fyller dem med passende farge, før hun skifter fokus til et nytt bilde. Innledningen av romanen var en av scenene som virket sterkest på meg, men jeg har også sans for Bockfeldts landskapsskildringer. De siste setningene i romanen er nydelige, og setter et pent punktum for denne fine leseropplevelsen.

Selv om det er mange gode skildringer i teksten, har Bockfeldt av og til en tendens til å gli litt over i det klisjeaktige og melodramatiske i enkelte scener. Dette trekker noe av helhetsinntrykket ned, men like fullt er Før jeg forlater deg en god debut.

Juritzen forlag satser sterkt på å bringe flere forfatterstemmer ut i den norske offentligheten. Med Bockfeldt har de sikret seg en spennende stemme. Forlaget kaller romanen unorsk. Jeg vil heller si at den skiller seg noe ut blant romanene jeg har lest fra samme forlag, da den ikke er spesielt kommersiell, og det er ment som en kompliment. Jeg synes dessuten det er flott at flere norske forfattere skildrer den lesbiske kjærligheten, og Bockfeldt gjør dette på en måte som er egnet til å bryte ned eventuelle fordommer. Slike romaner trenger vi flere av.

Back in Business


Photo: Tajikistan, Pamir Mountains

So, I took a break. I wrote a book, then I picked it apart, and now I’m putting it back together, but the way it goes with those things is that it becomes a very different novel altogether. I replaced vampires with terrorists, time-travel with coma-musings and moved some locations around, but ultimately the core of the novel is what I intended it to be; a psychological thriller and grief novel, exploring the darkness at the very edge of life.

I recently went away for a week to Dorset for a writing retreat with my very lovely writing group, and it was absolutely amazing. It made me reconnect with the love of my life; fiction writing, reinstating my belief that I can, must and will do this. Spending a week in my own head, figuring out what my second novel is actually about, being surrounded by amazing ladies who share my passion for writing, getting advice from my fantastic friend and mentor, Tricia- it all made such a difference and gave me so much more clarity for the road ahead.

Now all I need to do is make it all come together… Stay tuned..

The Gatwick office .. (below)..